After much pestering from my colleague to elaborate on fact 4 of 8 random facts about mua, here’s a recollection of that night that will forever be a major part of my life.

While waiting for my SPM results, I was forced to worked at an insurance company as a temporary accounts clerk.  My mom felt it was better for me to spend my time there then to waste it with my friends who were considered a bad influence on my life.  I agreed to give it a try but I told my mom I won’t stay for long.  I changed my mind on the first day itself.  There were too many "leng luis" in the company.  There was one problem though, I was 18 and all the leng luis were in their 20s.

F was 21 and she worked in the department next to mine.  She had joined the company two months before I did.  I’ve noticed her before because she fits my template for a girlfriend.  I’ve got a thing for tall women and long legs.  If you’re tall and you’ve got long legs, give me a call. 012-3xxxxxx. ;) 

The first time I bumped into her was in the photostating room one fine day.  She was already halfway through when I walked in.  I was standing there, watching her do her thing, and my world was being rocked!  She was the sweetest thing I’ve ever seen.  Heavens opened and a ray of light shined down directly on her.  Everything slowed down.  I felt as if I had to pee.  You know what I’m talking about?  Have you ever been so excited that you’d have the feeling of needing to pee?  Yeah, that’s how I felt.  In my mind, I kept telling myself, "Must make contact, must make contact. Must be smooth, must be smooth".  She looks over to me and gives me a quick little courteous smile. I smiled back and opened my big mouth, "Photostating ah?".  Arrgh! What a stupid thing to say!

She laughed, "Haha of course lar. What does it look like I’m doing?".

"Errr… How I know… I thought you were…. servicing the photostat machine?".  Niamah, what the heck am I doing!  But fortunately, she laughed even though it wasn’t really funny.  That was the start of many conversations and bumping into each other in that same room.  Every time she walked out of her department with a stack of documents, I made it my mission to do the same.

3 months later we were a couple.  You see her, you’ll see me.  We had lunch together, we worked late together.  Those days handphones were a luxury item so we had to call each other at home and we talked until late night even though it was a work day.  And those days, I didn’t own a car so sometimes we would take a minibus (extinct now) to my home and I would then drive her back in my dad’s car.  At this point of the relationship, kissing was already the norm.

One Friday night, I persuaded her to spend the night at my place since we don’t work on Saturdays.  I was living with my parents but had my own room.  That night, I was supposed to sleep on a mattress on the floor while she had my bed.  I sat on the floor beside the bed and we started sharing about many things, mostly she asked me questions.  She was about 4 years older than me, would our relationship last?  What happens when I’m 26 and she’ll be 30, will I still find her attractive?

In the end, both of us were snuggling on my mattress on the floor.  I know I uttered that I love her and will love her forever.  Snuggling then led to heavy kissing, heavy kissing led to my hand under her t-shirt.  My hand unclipped her bra, lifted her t-shirt and I fainted! Hahahaha.  Just joking lar.

In a matter of minutes, we were completely bare.

I was inexperience but some of you know that I used to skip school to watch "sex education" movies.  On top of that, I also read Cosmopolitan Magazine. :)  I’ve read about how women get aroused during foreplay, cunillingus techniques, etc.  But foreplay lasted only five minutes.  Give me a break lar, it was my first time. :P

To cut a long story short, we both lost our virginity.  But she didn’t experience orgasm that night.  It wasn’t until a few more intimate sessions that she finally experienced it.  At the end of the night, we cuddled together, there were a lot of kissing going on and I tried my best to stay awake.  I whispered in her ear that I’ll love her forever.  She cried.

She cried because she was now worried.  Firstly, I didn’t wear any protection and she might get pregnant.  I assured her that she won’t because I didn’t ejaculate inside her.  But I was worried as hell.

Most important of all, she had always wanted to keep herself for her husband and she had no assurance that we would end up together because of the age difference.  She had to wait for me to get a career and by that time, it would be too long.  My fire for her would eventually die down and I might leave her.  "What am I doing? You’re just 18. When you mature, you’ll probably think this is a bad idea and leave me. I’m worried I’m on the losing side in this relationship", tears rolling down her cheeks.  I cried with her and told her that I didn’t know what the future holds but I know I love her with all my heart and soul and she’s the best thing that’s ever happened to me. I was young lar… I now know that I could never love someone with all my heart and soul.  I’m not capable of giving that kind of love to a woman.

Our relationship ended 4 years later.